It is another winter morning in New York City and it’s no surprise that it is frigid outside. I miss the summer. I miss the warm days in Nigeria. The persistent tapping of rain water on my air conditioning unit does not make going outside very attractive to me. Some people like dark, rainy days, but not me. I’m a bright-and-sunny day type of person. What am I talking about????
The point of my blog today is whether to sell out or not to sell out. My blog has been growing in leaps and bounds. Each month, the number of views increases significantly. But then I look at some of the biggest blogs, the blogs that make a lot of money with advertising and they mostly seem to report the news or post gossip about celebrities. The entertainment blogs are by far the biggest. Technology sites are huge as well. Most bloggers start out just writing about the things and issues they care about. They write about the things that move them, but then you look around and realize that there is a lot of money being made out there. The temptation rises. I have never been motivated to do anything for the sake of money, but at the same time, money does not hurt. Freedom and happyness have always been the forces that drive me to do the things that I do. Modeling, acting and boxing have all given me the freedom to express myself and in these three things, I have found happiness.
I believe that the people who read my blog, do so because they are interested in what I have to say and how I express myself. I have no fear in sharing how I feel; pain or otherwise. I guess it would not be the same if I just reported the news or maybe talked about what Kim Kardashian was wearing or how her ass looked in a dress. I just don’t care. Well….let me back track a bit, maybe I would talk about that, but then if I did, I would talk about how her ass looked when she was younger. I might actually talk about how it looked in the-most-boring-sex-tape-ever-made. I think that even as an older woman, J Lo’s is nicer. But that’s just one man’s opinion.
So, back to whether to sell out or not to sell out…I guess that even if I were to sell out, I wouldn’t be able to sustain it long-term because it’s extremely difficult for me to put any energy, let alone write about anything or any person that I don’t care about. I guess all this writing has helped me arrive at a conclusion. By God, I have answered the question!!! Sometimes writing truly is therapeutic. I am not going to sell out. I will continue to share my thoughts and ideas with those who will listen, whether or not it makes money. That is the only way that I will truly be free and happy with this process. That is always my motivation – the pursuit of happiness.
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Ngoli Okafor
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